Ranting and Raving

So I apologize up front for the attitude of this post- it will not be very positive. I will try to condense as much as I can while still retaining the integrity of the story :) Some of you know what Timm's job arrangement consisted of: He ran a scuba shop, and in turn, took the store's profits each month. Based on last year's sales, we were supposed to make a good $8000 more than we had been making a year, which would have made life comfortable. (i.e. not watching every single penny, just every nickel...) Well, we kept on for about 6 months, waiting for the payoff we expected, but each month was just not quite as good as we had hoped. Well, January the store took a loss of almost $3,000. The shop's owner gave us a pity $1,000 for us to live on, and luckily we have some student loans to make up the difference. We decided that we couldn't keep on doing this. The business arrangement was just not proving as productive as we needed it to be. It's really unfortunate for a few reasons. This was the first time since I've known Timm that he didn't have 3 jobs. He scheduled himself, so it was flexible. He never had to work Sundays, and he was home most nights by 8 pm instead of 11. He still wasn't hanging around the house all the time, but I saw him some nights and every Sunday. He was the boss, so it was flexible. He and the store owner decided that with Timm's school schedule he just didn't;'t have the time to devote to running the shop the way it was needed. So the new arrangement is that Timm will be paid by the hour. The problem: with his heavy school load (17 1/2 credits) he will only make about $1000 a month. We don't know what else he can do. He is already at school for 15 hours some days of the week, and has a part-time job at BYU as well. I don' tknow what we're going to do. We have to consider all of our options- I'm even thinking of getting a paper route in the wee hours. My dad did that supplementary for a few years, and Rachelle does that now as a single mom so she can stay home with her son. It sounds absolutely horrible, but like I said, we have to explore all of our options. (I guess it's a really good thing that it turned out I wasn't pregnant!) Oh, and the real stickler of it all... Obviously we won't be buying our new place :( For those of you who didn't know, we had put money down on a condo that is in construction and we were going to move in June. It was going to be brand-new and we were going to get to pick out our materials and everything. We're going to have to see if we can get our money back and continue renting. Ah, the American dream has died. Obviously I'm pretty bummed about this all, but I'm trying to keep a stiff upper lip. The world I escape to in my book is filled with much more suffering than this so I am trying to keep a perspective. However, I still don't know how we're going to make it... Even if we can manage to survive monthly, we're back to that dismal existence where we can't ever take a day off because we can't afford for Timm to miss work- if the car breaks down we have no reserves to fix it, we have no money for gifts for people's birthdays, definitely no discressionary money so we wait for birthdays and Christmas to cash in... I'm sorry I'm just complaining, but I need a sounding board to vent to. I know many of you will understand this, so I needed to vent somewhere. Please forgive the self-pity. I'll get over it.
*Any ideas for a job for me?*