More Choices!

I can't get Jill's post about Choices out of my head. I'm in a real funk lately, and I can't seem to pull myself out of it. Especially diet-wise, but I won't go into that because it will bore you all. I think I have been living in a kind of haze where I 'choose' to believe that my choices don't really matter. Our lives are full of millions of small choices that seem to amount to nothing, and I think the adversary lulls us to believe that they are inconsequential, when nothing could be farther from the truth. As a homemaker, in my current state of life, I am not faced with seemingly 'major' choices that will affect my eternal destiny- rather, I am faced with many small choices that shape and mold me. I guess for me it is easier to see and believe the outcome of choosing to, say, live a chaste life, than the seemingly inconsequential choice of whether to eat cookies for breakfast. However, Thomas S. Monson said:

"It has been said that the gate of history turns on small hinges, and
so do people's lives. The choices we make determine our
destiny."

I know this will sound really strange, but sometimes I feel like my bad or maybe just mediocre choices show on my face. I just feel really 'blah' lately, and when I look at myself in the mirror, I LOOK different. My bad choices are reflected in my face (and a few pounds on my body!) and I don't think anyone else can notice, but there is some kind of physiological difference that is blatant to me. I can't get all of this out of my mind- I am having an 'aha!' moment of epiphany, and I hope that it all sticks. I am really trying to be conscious of every choice I am making and the outcome that will follow. I think the adversary really has a good thing going by having us believe that our choices are small and irrelevant. We really do have so many choices, and large or small, they really DO matter, and they really DO shape us- as well as other people! Thanks for the thought Jill...