I have three main interests I want to pursue right now:
The first, sewing, is really exciting. It gets me so riled up and excited, dreaming up ideas, possibilities, projects... I love nothing more than the feeling of being inspired. It is exhilarating! Everything I look at I try to envision how I could make it. If it could be sewn, or hand-made in any way. I would love to make whenever possible, and resort to buying only when necessary. However I'm afraid I've become a bit impotent in this area. I have no real sewing skills, just my self-learned attempts at the craft. The problem I think is this; I have been noodling around trying to make all kids of things that I'm just figuring out on my own, without a pattern. I think I am relatively good at this, but I have yet to complete a project because I am constantly second-guessing myself and my creations. This becomes very frustrating and gives me a sort of paralyzation. Creative paralyzation, the worst kind. Aside from actual paralyzation, that is. I need a good success, a completed project, something to be proud of, to continue to inspire me instead of frustrate me. Also I am dealing with less than ideal materials. I wish I had the money to buy the supplies, both fabrics and notions and tools to make it a lot easier and satisfying. That and someone to really teach me to sew. Maybe I need to find a nice new, simple pattern and complete something to give me sewing confidence and cease my impotence. The worst kind of impotence, besides actual impotence that is. Ha.
I want fabric!!!!
Then there's gardening. I really want to learn more about this. I have no illusions about starting a real garden this year with a babe-in-arms, but I do want to start, and to start learning so next year I can really attack our yard. Again money comes into play. I know that you can do a lot without spending a lot of money, but it's sure a lot easier and sometimes more gratifying if you can just spend money. Instead of buying seeds for everything, buying some plants to get started. Our yard needs a lot of work, and I think I would really enjoy the work. I don't know anything though, so I am trying to self-educate myself, again. Timm's spring break starts on Monday and we have dubbed it landscape week since we never have time to do anything with his work schedule.
I want plants and a pretty yard!!!
And then running. I have always dreamed of being a runner, but assumed it as impossible. Just one of those things that was basically impossible. However I am learning to challenge that assumption and prove more to myself, to overcome one of the most difficult things I can dream up. I just got a new pair of shoes, to be featured in an upcoming post, and have merely completed day one of week one in my 8w eek program. Still, I yearn. If I prove to myself a certain degree of dedication or completion I am going to buy some running clothes, and eventually my own iPod. Music is absolutely key.
I want to run!!!
It keeping with these interests and my love for self-education, here are my most recent checkouts from the library: Bend the Rules Sewing, Stitched in Time, Covering Ground, and Complete Home Gardening. Any and all tips would be greatly appreciated.
Oh, and continuing to lose weight. Sewing, gardening, and running could all help with this endeavor by keeping my hands and feet busy. Plus, I can always use some more time on my butt with my sedentary interests.