Thursday, February 25, 2010
So where were we...Oh, right. I mean, there's the aforementioned Law & Order, which following one of the basic laws of nature states that at any hour of the day, no matter where you are, there will always be an episode running. So there's that, as well as Burn Notice, Chuck, American idol, So You Think You Can Dance, Psych, Lost, Survivor, House, Community, The Office, Parks & Rec, Tabatha's Salon Takeover and many, many others. Not to mention shows in syndication, tv on dvd like Gilmore Girls, Arrested Development, Wonderfalls- and never forget about Lifetime movies. They now have an entire network devoted to them- all Lifetime movies, all the time. If all else fails, there is always something educational on to offset some of the ill effects of so much tv consumption.
After Bella was born, I had the tv on almost 24-7 just to give me a sense of company, whether I was listening or not.
Cut to now. I enjoy tv, I don't value it. The sad thing, the embarrassing thing to admit is that I am a little afraid to give it up. If I give it up, I have to be more engaged, more involved. Which ultimately I want, but requires more of me. More energy. More action, productivity, creativity- which all sound like good things, but harder to act on than laziness. I know that if we just cut tv out I would have so much more to show. I know I will never look back and say, "I just wish I had watched more tv." Let's run with this- the ill effects of tv. I hate my girls seeing advertisements supporting commercialism, consumerism, creepy prostitute-dolls and sugary crap.. I hate hearing Bella sing commercial jingle and catch phrases, reminding me of the influences she has. I hate that it "does" everything, requiring little from them. I hate having nothing to show for myself but a line up of shows. But here we are.
I'm working my way towards this. It would be a bit of a leap of faith, which saddens me to say. It seems so pathetic. Tv is just another way that I allow myself to watch my life and the lives of others pass me by instead of actually engaging in it. I feel like I am always virtually-experiencing life, vicariously. There's less required of me that way, less risk, and much, much less reward.