Friday, November 06, 2009

These Are the Times

...that I feel like a bad mother.
Fiona is supposed to be taking a nap but instead is crying tears of betrayal and anger in her crib.
Bella is having a tantrum in her room because I told her 'no' about something and I told her she needed to go into her room until she was ready to be happy again. Not in trouble, just needed to work it out and get a hold of herself. She walks away, sobbing, looking back at me and wailing as I count my threatening '1, 2...' I don't really care about whatever I said no to, I just want to change my mind and give in but that doesn't really do anyone any good in the long run.
And Fiona? She's 14 months old and she still cries every time I put her down, whether it be nap or bedtime. She still wakes up in the night, albeit for only a few moments that I largely ignore, but what is the deal? Why does she still cry every single time? We have nice bedtime routines- Doesn't she get it by now? Doesn't she see it coming? One time I was complaining to Timm about her sleeping habits. I said "I don't get it- I did everything with her the exact same way I did with Bella!" (who was a very good sleeper-) He replied "It's like they're two totally different people or something."
Hmph.

8 comments:

Hannah said...

I get days like that. Tuesday was like that for me. I wanted to throw in the smotherhood towel and run for the hills. They were both sobbing by 7am. How is anything awake long enough to be upset about life at 7am?!?!

I just love Timm...

Hannah said...

And yes...I said "anything" because the whining and crying makes them into jerky monsters that I don't want to admit came from my body.

michelle said...

...that try (wo)men's souls!

I get it, totally. And Timm cracks me up.

Jill said...

I hate having to follow through with things too. Landon seems to get upset by a lot of what I say lately and I can't take it. It was way easier being tough when the kids were tiny, but now that he's a very coherent 11 year old I can't take the look of betrayal or anger on his face. It's so hard not to cave!

Diana said...

oh Jessie thats too funny. I'm sorry ITs only funny because we all have those moments.
What Timm said totally reminds me of something Lou would say.

rmt said...

I can relate to this. Daniel likes to throw the "Daddy would let me do it" card at me, which is so frustrating to me!

linda said...

I hate to dim the light at the end of the tunnel but my soon to be 18 year old daughter went to bed last night crying as well...

Susan said...

I guess smotherhood never ends...

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